I was watching
the incredible satisfying Bruce Weber film, Chop Suey on Sundance recently. The
film is an homage to many things: singer Frances Faye, Vogue editor Diana
Vreeland, model Jeff Aquilon, GQ art director Donald Sterzin and a young beauty
by the name of Peter Johnson. Bruce Weber is a master photographer who has made
a career of portraying beautiful men and women in relaxed yet sexually charged
situations. Chop Suey explores many of those themes and for those old enough to
remember, explains how some of the most historic photographs of men were
created. There is a looming sadness of longing in the film as Weber explains
that GQ art director Donald Sterzin fell in love with Pepperdine University
water polo captain Jeff Aquilon on first sight. Aquilon became a cover model
and one of the biggest models of the 80s. Sterzin died of AIDS in 1992 and he
given a poignant farewell in Chop Suey. Peter Johnson was in 2001 a 16-year-old
wrestler that Weber discovered in the Midwest and consequently asked him to live
with him in New York City. He took thousands of photographs, mostly nudes of
the beautiful young man in a four-year collaboration. As viewers we are never
quite sure what the relationship is other than longing, or as Weber honestly
states: “We sometimes photograph people we wish we could have been.” Beauty as
muse is not new. Gay men longing for straight men is not new (both Aquilon and
Johnson are married with children). The film itself is not without controversy—one reviewer called it: “a fascinating study of self-deception.”
Bruce Weber is
married to a woman, which is not particularly remarkable. But it does ask the
question, is he gay? A Google search reveals little about the subject. One
could argue that his longing and lust for these young men is part of what has
made him such a great photographer—it appears to never be satisfied. In age
were a Clay Aiken is hounded to confess his sexuality, it would appear to be
only the young who need to worry. No one is interested in old homosexuals. When
Star Trek actor George Takei came out in Frontiers magazine in 2005, he was
admonished for not coming out sooner. He responded with "It's not really
coming out, which suggests opening a door and stepping through. It's more like
a long, long walk through what began as a narrow corridor that starts to
widen." Singer/songwriter Laura Nyro had a 17-year relationship with Maria
Desiderio, but you will not find that in her Wikipedia profile. Yes, perhaps
these are old school gay people but shouldn’t it be just as important the world
to know that these talents, these huge legends of talents were gay. Neil
Patrick Harris is a wonderful talented man, but his coming out really felt of
no consequence. It makes one wonder. The current thinking about outing is
something like thus:
1.
Hypocrites only, and only when they actively oppose gay rights and interests;
2.
Outing passive accomplices who help run homophobic institutions;
3.
Prominent individuals whose outing would shatter stereotypes and compel the
public to reconsider its attitude on homosexuality;
4.
Only the dead.
Chop Suey is an
amazing insight to one man’s longing and desires. If only because memory serves
us to remember the slight details of substance, I recall now that Weber was once
asked the question about his sexuality and if he were a gay man and he replied:
“too many friends have died for me to deny it.” That may be as good as it gets,
or as he said: You've always
got to be unafraid about having a fantasy life, and be unafraid that people
will be judgmental. They are going to be judgmental anyway."


























